In the personal stage, there was a beginning awareness of the enclosed individual body, of ego-self. This awareness of the personal self was within, and firmly connected to the cosmic unity awareness, which we now call magic. Within the budding personal awareness, the animal instincts translated, transmuted into practical material life skills and knowledge ... but also into fear which turned into independent demons which threatened the very existence of the personal self. To battle these demons, and to fully use this emerging frontbrain, the pre-tribal person had to live within the magical awareness of cosmic unity. This was just a fact of life. Every person did rituals of playing and of dreaming.
The living awareness next moved from the personal enclosed body to the extended body of the tribe. Understand, the mother-child temporary relationship or connection had developed long before in the animal awareness. The first tribal group form of awareness was not based on biological family, or on sex attractions, or on power dynamics. This is not to say that the first tribal groupings did not have biological/sexual connection within them. They did. But this was not the organizing factor in the forming of these first tribal groupings.
Physical closeness was the organizing factor. To understand this, we have first to go back to the personal level of awareness. The key development within the personal level was not the awareness of separation and isolation, but the awareness of self as a nonlinear part of the web of being. In this stage, the baby and the mother are one body to the baby. Before this, the baby did not have enough emergent self-awareness from the background, both organic and inorganic, to make this including of the self into the other. The baby and the mother are one body just because they both are there in physical closeness within the magical segment of time. This is also why personal awareness includes itself into the land it lives on. The land was not his land. Rather, he was the land, and the land was him. This was true because they existed together in physical closeness. This is the basic dynamic of what we will call “deep love”, “erour love”. This was also the dynamic gravity which pulled the personal awareness into tribal awareness. Personal awareness included the self into the magical other, represented by the humans in physical closeness with him.
This liquid existence of self-awareness was possible because the budding frontbrain was still within the backbrain, still within the experience of the at-one-ness with the total dynamic existence. A fear reality was generated within the instincts by the creation of both the frontbrain and the personal awareness within the backbrain. This fear reality took on a separate demonic existence and is the root of “life-denials”, the demonic fear reality.
When we look from where we are at now, within the personal era, there would appear to be little or no separation between what was inside of the body/brain and what was outside during the pre-tribal era, and the dawning of the tribal awareness. By adding awareness of self into instinct, it radically changed all levels of reality. From the background process of existence came the instinctual process of forms changing into one another in the eating melting killing decaying process ... in this process, there arose the relationship between the self and the other, between the creator and the creation, the eater and the eaten. The self played both roles in this dance of duality. We have said that fear was created by this awareness of duality. But by being aware that the self is within the other, it also introduced personal love and personal responsibility for the magical other. This dimension of dynamic relationship of interpenetration created the possibility of participation and experiencing of life by the personal self.
For a moment we have gotten out of the narrow context. We slipped out of the narrow context of the linear historical process of the development of awareness in our species on this planet. We had slipped for a moment into the universal awareness existence. Since the narrow frame of species development is impossible enough to capture in words, we had better return to that.
The inner development of the mind was projected onto the development of the tribe. The tribe was not a collection of individual persons. It was a body. Above we have described how and why this body formed from persons existing within physical closeness. But it is useful to talk about the tribe as a personal mind/body. It is useful to confuse the tribal body with the personal body.
This body rarely died. Rather, parts within it went through the birth/death cycle/ritual. This body did not relate to the physical/psychic environment it found itself in as separate from itself, but as within the body. It did not relate to its food sources as separate from itself, but as within the body. But there was the sense of magical difference. This magical difference created an inter-relationship. This inter-relationship was experienced by the body. This experience was life. Experience was not yet broken down into yin and yang. There was not yet the concept of conquering the outside.
Everything was inside the body. The basic motivating principle was to do what was needed. There was not a sense of conflicting needs because everything was within the body. The magical quest was to find out what was needed. Experience was not yet fragmented into the seven centers of the body, into dreams and imagination and the real world, into past, present, future. The experience was whole.
The tribal grouping was an extension of the personal body, as the personal bodies/minds/souls were extensions of the tribal grouping. This human living being was an extension of the organic/inorganic environment in which it existed. The forming frontbrain was in the womb of the backbrain. What we now call skin was the nerve organ for this being of dynamic interpenetration. This was the experiential existence in which the awareness of self began to create the universe of separate things, of time and space, of sex, of living and dying. In the animals, this experiential awareness operated below the personal level in the form of instincts and learning play. This is being in, operating in, the living experience, but not creating the experience, not being personally responsible for the experience. But once the awareness of self entered the personal level, the responsibility for creation rested within each and every person. This responsibility of creation is at the core of magic.
The backbrain was created by and when the awareness of self entered into the instinctual existence of being within everything. The backbrain is total experience. It is directly linked to the ultimate reality of the web of all possibilities. This linkage is only framed in by the personal self within the backbrain.
To get a handle on what this primal total awareness is, we should realize that experience was not originally broken up into inner and outer, nor into the seven body centers. It was one enveloping sensation transmitted through the nerve organ, the skin. Even today, each of the body centers has the capability of becoming any of the other centers, has the capability of both transmitting and receiving all types of energies. For example, it is possible to switch the site of the orgasm from the so-called sexual organs to any other part of the body. Western medicine has taught this technique to spinal-injured patients who have no feelings in their lower body. But this technique has been kept away from the general public by the power combine, although this technique would halt AIDS and other sexually transferred diseases; would halt the creation of unwanted babies; would break down personal isolation and frustration; and would lead to other physical trance states of enjoyment. It has been in the vested interest of the power combine to keep the total direct intimate experience of existing/creating/being away from people through religious and political means.
Having an orgasm in each center of the body has a different effect; each opens a different door than having an orgasm in another part of the body. For example, it is fairly common for nursing mothers to have orgasms while they nurse. In this context, the orgasm should not be seen as sexual, but as an aspect of human nourishing love. By just revealing this hidden fact of the capability of moving the site of orgasm around the body, of using the different aspects of the orgasm other than the usual sexual, it opens up a richer, more complex, more empowering life. But this is only the beginning. This is true of all of the functions that are traditionally limited to one part of the body. You see with your heart, belly, mind, cock/pussy, etc. You do not see just with your eyes. This is another way of saying that light, as an example of all sensual forces, has many more aspects than the ones we have been told about. Light, and every other sensual force, interacts with all of our body centers, exchanging cherotic packets of possibilities, creating a total interactive experience.
But there is still more of this total experience that has been hidden from us by the power-driven combine of life-denials. In body play within cherotic magic, we used what is normally called sex as our access point into the deeper magical dimensions. We stated that the orgasmic intercourse act is confusing within all relationships except in a relationship of creating a committed life together.
In the first edition of this book, it was stated this confusion was caused by the biological patterns set off in the mind by the act of orgasmic intercourse. This is true, as far as it goes. It can now be revealed that most of the confusion, the jealousy, the possessiveness, and the other manifestations are caused by the casual use of sex.
This casualness has been caused by the artificial funneling of this aspect of the cherotic energy exchange into the genitals, into intercourse. This funneling has been a major aspect of the life-denials. What we were left with was an artificial choice between having sex, that vague concept, or being celibate. In reality, both of these “choices” focused the chero only through the genitals only through the medium of intercourse, or the refraining from orgasm and intercourse, on the “sexual” level. What this does is forces people to use only one channel, called “sex”, to fulfill all of their needs, to express and exchange all of their physical chero. Moreover, this one channel is tightly controlled by life-denying morals, glamour, and romantic expectations, creating an extremely complex game maze of illusion. This is like taping up all of the keys except one on a piano, like denying a painter all colors except yellow. What can be created, can be expressed, is extremely and artificially limited. This limiting is the root of casualness.
Within the magical experimentation in which I have been involved for over 25 years, it became clear that each component of physical play had its own alchemical, biochemical, physical and psychic effects and properties. The orgasm that is felt in the genitals within intercourse begins a long-term bonding pattern within the brains of the playing lovers. When this is realized, it becomes obvious that using this type of orgasmic sex in any other relationships than in the context of a long-term relationship would be counterproductive. It would be like removing a screw with a hammer.
This removes the distorting morality that has hidden most aspects of experience from us.
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